because blogging about it stifles the blow

ever have such a hard time keeping your cool that you get the shakes?

we're supposed to 'kill 'em with kindness'. we're supposed to smile, hope they one day will understand the grief you're experiencing (perhaps even make amends) and we're supposed to have the patience to let that one day come in its own timing.

i crawled outside that jesus-attitude box once today and wished i stayed in it. silence is better sometimes, especially if you want a letter of recommendation one day. i was kind, tactful and quiet. but i still opened my mouth.

regardless of their mature delivery, my words were more than silence. i failed in letting my actions speak for themselves.

how badly i want to put people in their place, today.